January 26, 2013 Saturday morning
Why I chose “Glad to Be Alive”
Perhaps you wonder why I have chosen my blog name, Glad To Be Alive. It’s not as obvious as you might think. Maybe a lot of people feel this way. Until very recently, I have not felt so. I have been depressed, angry, and frustrated… about being here. I was cynical about people. Frankly this has not much changed except for one thing, I’ve become simply glad about being alive. And it has nothing to do with any other feelings. It’s not a ‘happy’ feeling, just an appreciation. It feels like balance and it feels deep.
I was walking from Sprouts Grocery Store to my car when I noticed the expression on my face. I could feel my frown and I was looking at the ground, when I had an epiphany – a spiritual realization: I did not have to see that moment in that way. I could be glad, not sad, about just being there, about just walking, about just moving, about just breathing, seeing the parking lot and people walking, feeling the ground with my feet, the sun on my hair. I could brighten up my expression, lift up my vision and see and hear what was all around me. I didn’t have to feel happy, just glad, to be alive.
My sister is a WordPress blogger, A Christian Overcomer, who has about a hundred followers. We often talk about life. We grew up hearing our parents talking. She’s interesting and she says I’m interesting. She wanted me to write some of the things I share only with her. But I couldn’t do it without a name that represents my current vision for my life which is what this weblog will be about. Until several days ago, I didn’t have a title . A day later, and a minute after I woke up, I “heard” this name and knew it was right and that it was time to start writing to people. It’s funny how things seem to work out. Sometimes I just know when the time is right.
If you read my weblog and then my sister’s – we are identical twins – you might notice some differences. But there is something deeper that is the same. We both want to find what’s true. Her truth is often superficially different from mine, but actually I don’t think it is fundamentally.
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